I've been blogging here for the past 3++ years.. but recently this blog has caused me some problems so I think it's time for me to change... I had penned down so many ups and downs of my life in here in these several years...I'll definitely miss it~ =)

Feel free to visit my new blog and drop me some msgs ya? see ya guys there!

Ugghhhhh actually I had almost finished typing an earlier entry but somehow I forgot to click 'copy' and I've accidentally close the whole page..hence, I've lost everything I've written!!  aaaaaaaaaghhh so angry at this stupid blog.. made me couldn't upload pics..I don't know what's bloody wrong!!! I'm so pissed off!

Now I've no mood to re-write what I typed earlier on.....dammit!

I'm very disappointed at the moment... what can I say? bad things always have their ways to recur in future.....and it's always the same thing (or person) I'm disappointed about. It's actually about tomorrow's outing.... every time I'm looking forward to certain day, I'll start thinking what outfit to wear, which accessories/shoes to match, paint my nails/toe nails, and do many other things in advance... I'll put extra little efforts when I'm excited about something. And what do I get? The person hardly even notices that efforts I've placed on. Even uglier, things that I look forward to often don't turn out as good as I thought they would be..or sometimes, the plan wouldn't even work out/take place at all. At times I feel like I've been jinxed or something, coz whatever I've planned beforehand is often doomed when the day arrives. I'm so afraid of looking forward to something..

Hippo potato is always so busy, his workload is nearly as high as Mount Everest.. things that we've planned to do, trips that we have planned to go, have yet to take place also..sigh~ I also have my own needs.. =( I feel like God is testing our perseverance. WP is also always busy, only Heaven knows what she's busy about..often rejects outing together..so sick of her sometimes.. Sigh..I need to get to know more new friends! My net friend, J, constantly asks me to meet up..since like, 3 months ago??? sometimes it irks me whenever he pops out the same question..he already knew what my answer will be, then why still wanna be so persistent?? I don't meet net friends okay, I used to do that when I was younger, but not now.... well, maybe. If he still keeps asking me that, I think it'll only turn me off even more..

Yawn...what a boring off day! And not to forget to mention it's a very hot day too. Didn't go anywhere... =/ my mom has lots of stuff to do so she has no time to go for facials together..sigh!! I had been so looking forward to this day!!!  I was slightly disappointed yesterday. Looks like I gotta wait for 2 more weeks before I could get it done...have to wait until she's back from her Beijing tour.. =(

Hmm, my paternal relatives and my family are planning to have a 2D1N trip at Cameron Highlands on the 2nd of June..which is also a public holiday, Agong's Birthday. I'm wondering if I wanna join them or not, because I haven't had any trips/vacation with my family for sooooooooooo long I couldn't even remember when was our last time. Sounds pity huh? Frankly, it ain't very enjoyable to hang out with my family too..sometimes they are so uptight about certain views I find it hard to communicate with them.

Meanwhile, I'm also thinking to use this opportunity to spend more time with hippo since my parents won't be around for 2 days.. *grins sheepishly* HOWEVER, my plan will not really be successful UNLESS my bro goes with them too. He's an ultimate pengacau to me... Or maybe, I shall ask hippo to plan some activity for both of us to do..maybe a trip together? Still have plenty of thinking to do ahead. =/

Gee..after reading the MYB posts about the Skin Food masks over and over again, it made me feel so tempted to buy their product.. even GF has left me a comment on my Fster blog that their products are really good for her.. so far I've only bought 2 nail polishes at that shop, and I feel that they are even better than the ones I bought at Sasa and Elianto.. the nail polish can last much longer and the colors are really pretty too.

I'm not sure whether I wanna get the watermelon mask or that black sugar mask.. very confused! that black sugar mask is RM44..however the texture is like a scrub.. I'm afraid it could be too harsh on my already sensitive skin... but I like its functions though, it's for washing off dead skins/blackheads/whiteheads.. is exactly the type of mask I'm looking for. I'm worried it might not be too suitable for my skin as mine easily gets red..

Can't wait to visit that shop this Sunday!! tomorrow I might be going for another facial session with my mom..have to see if she's free or not. =/ Hope she will be! I've already made myself available tomorrow...... or else it'll be just wasting my off day.

Bad luck strikes again.. or I should consider it as another hurdle for me to go through.. sighhh~

My bro has stopped working all of a sudden.. I don't know what's going on with him.. I only found it out from my mom.. and I think he didn't even tell her the truth.. now she's so worried of him.. he always changes jobs.. always unstable.. sigh.. now I feel a heavy responsibilty to help my parents out with my little income..however much I can afford.... I know they are not asking anything from me, but I feel obligated already..since my bro's like that.. I couldn't just not contribute anything, right? why can't he have a stable job once and for all?? always causes problems to us... so frustrating!!!

Also, since he's no longer working at this moment..I couldn't tumpang his car out too..sigh.. another problem for me.... going out will be another hassle.. so troublesome..sigh! why is my life only getting tougher yet others seem to be enjoying so much..?? I couldn't do so many things I wanted to.. looks like I've to work extra hours in this month in order to earn more.. sometimes I'm just so tired of this damn routine.. whole day work, work, work, yet by the end of the month it all falls back the same place...achieved nothing..worked for nothing..

I have yet to settle my education matters too... I feel so burdened by things going on in my life....nobody really knows what's happening..I never told anyone.. when I'm at outside, people think I'm okay..coz I don't show a sour face.. even hippo couldn't help me much also..

At my workplace, the birthmark girl (let's call her S) always 'snatches' the customers I attend to.. although she's generally not a bad person, but when it comes to work she's like a totally different ppl... so money-minded.. always snatches ppl's customers when we are in the midst of attending them..how annoying is that? so disrespectful... when we manage to convince customers to purchase certain products, we do get incentives from it.. that's why she snatches ppl's customers.. after just a month of knowing her, she has already shown her true colors, right in front of your eyes.. I no longer think she is the person whom I perceived she was..

Man, Streamyx connection is superbly slow!! what's up with Telekom?? why do they always give lousy service to its subscribers??

Anyway, after just 30 mins returning home from an outing with hippo, I went out to yamcha with Choo again... I was nearly suffocated by the people's cigarette smoke! I started coughing coz my throat was quite sensitive to it.. sooooo damn pissed with these people! But I couldn't do anything other than leaving that place. So tired now. and I haven't taken my shower also!

Today we went shopping at TS and Sg. Wang..as in really shopping! Mostly hippo did the shopping though. I'm still waiting for my salary to come..then it'll soon be my turn. Muahaha! Actually we had planned to take a ride on the Ferris wheel tonight but we didn't make it..both of us didn't have the mood for it..maybe we were just too lazy to drive there. We literally spent whole day shopping..whoa.. I think this is the 1st time we had a real shopping..previously this activity usually lasted several hours only.

Guess what..? I went to the regular visited hair salon and had my FRINGE trimmed for 10 bucks!! and it was just like, 1cm shorter..? 30 secs of trimming already cost me that..what to do, it's at Sg. Wang..prices are definitely different. really easy money for the hairdresser. Of course I was abit heartache.. but I was too kiasu to leave after asking the cost so I just went ahead. He must be so happy every time I visit him.. I've gone there for 2 times in just a month! I even joked with him of how easy for him to earn money. Then he said, "All this only comes with my 10+ years worth of experience!!"

Hippo bought me 2 lovely anklets at an accessories shop called "Beads Zone", a pair of sunnies at Vincci and a skirt at "My Closet".. so happy! ^_^ Will upload the pics soon coz the cable's not with me. If you guys have been reading my blog, I've mentioned that I've accidentally spoilt my old sunnies last time.. =( In addition, I bought myself 4 PAIRS of earrings!! hehehe..now I'm so into accessories again! it's seasonal..sometimes I'm a shoe fetish, other times I'm a clothes collector, right now it's back to the first one.. 2 weeks ago I had 2 new pairs of earrings, 1 Bonita necklace.. last week I've got myself new bracelet, this week I got 2 anklets, 4 pairs earrings!! ^_^ I know I'm vain, can't help myself seeing pretty little things. =)

So if any of you girls are looking for nice and lovely yet affordable accessories like anklets, bracelets or earrings..visit "Beads Zone" located at 6th Floor Times Square.. you girls will certainly love the things there!! There are so many kinds to choose from..till I became dizzy. I already fell in love with that place.. and there's also another option to feed your girlie craving, which is at a shop called "Cocobeach" located at The Curve....I'm not sure which floor it is but it's not difficult to find..you can already see it when you notice a shop that's usually full with females.

I bumped into Lam at Sg. Wang while choosing earrings.. so coincident!! she was with her sis and step sis..looks like they bought a lot of stuff too.

Ok..now I'll be off to take a shower..it's 12.15am!! I've to wake up early to work..arghh~~ Nitez!

This afternoon I was abit moody at work..but not long after that I was back to my normal self.. I feel that I've changed a lot compared to last time.. I'm becoming more tolerant, more mature and wiser in thinking, more understanding than I ever was..which is quite great for my self-development I shall say. I'm gradually becoming more mature mentally as time passes by.. Maturity comes a long way I suppose. There were several unhappy incidents that have taken place during afternoon.. but I chose to let them go.. I chose not let any negativity to affect me. I didn't put these unhappy stuff in my heart.. I felt much better of course.. had an ease of mind.. If all these had happened to me in the past, I certainly wouldn't be able to get them off my mind in such a short period of time.. Hippo said I'm just too good (sometimes).. he said I shouldn't be too nice to people..especially if one of your colleagues is not that good to you..He felt that I should treat them like enemy and compete with them.. but to me, I prefer to have one more friend than having another 'enemy'.. 

Kelly Services (a job agency) gave me a call out of the blue when I was working.. it has been more than 6-7 months since they last contacted me about any job offer..I had no idea what made them call me all of a sudden! I was totally stoned. A lady asked me if I'm still looking for a job, because they have a job position which they deemed is suitable for me, which is working for Celcom Customer Service dept. Gosh, I'd already attended that interview last year! Why did she suddenly call me again? She asked me if I could speak Mandarin fluently, which I said no..honestly. She then asked me how would I rate myself in that language between the scale of 1-10, I answered, "4". She continued, 'That bad ah??' haha.. "Yeah". Then she passed the call to another Chinese man to speak to me. He spoke and asked me questions in Mandarin and I was able to speak quite well, albeit just simple sentences. Still, I can speak actually ok! It's just not that good enough to be proud of. =P And I don't wanna be proud of it either. I've improved so much since the time I spoke during that interview last year.

After the short Q&A, he passed back the call to that Indian lady, in which she said, "Just now my Chinese colleague told me that your Mandarin isn't that bad afterall, it's still understandable...blah blah.." HEeeeee..somebody actually complimented me in that language! I felt so happy! ^_^ So she asked me several times whether I was still interested or not, I bluntly told her I was not. Hmm.. =/ When I needed a job last time..I didn't get anything.. now pulak they asked me.. too late..not gonna look for any office job till the day I officially become a graduate.

My mom has just got home from a trip at Phuket.. she kinda showed her temper to me upon reaching home..What a 'nice' greeting from her. I was being concerned enough to ask how her trip had been, but the hostile response she gave to me makes me feel like I've made a big mistake by asking her that.....Oh God..where did I go wrong?? I'm so sick of living with them... none of them cares how I feel.... I myself am also very tired of working 12 hours..but who has shown at least the slightest concern about me? None, not even one of them. I also need abit of concern.. I can collapse too, I've emotions too. All they know is flare their temper to me when things go wrong, I'm sick of it..just because I'm the youngest here doesn't mean that they can vent their frustrations on me....

Ok I'll talk about other stuff instead. Yesterday was Labour Day + Wesak Day... I only had 1 day off, so was he. Both of us went to Cathay Cineleisure Damansara and The Curve.. It was my 1st time being at that Cineleisure.. the last time I went to The Curve was more than a year ago.. it was strange that I didn't stop by there whenever I went to 1U..coz they both are just some distance away. We went to catch the much-anticipated "Spiderman 3" at the cineplex on the 1st day of its nationwide release!! =) We were so lucky to be able to get the tickets without any booking at all.... We were fortunate because some ppl who have made prior booking didn't come to collect their tickets in that 45 minutes so the tickets were sold to the queue.... and the tickets were just released right before our turn at the counter! The whole cinema was fully occupied, even at the first row. The movie's really good, to me it's by far the best of all the other previous episodes. A lot of different plots, good storyline..overall it's just a great movie. Oh, my James Franco 'dies' in that movie!! =( *boo hoo*

We had western cuisine for lunch (at 3pm something!) at a restaurant called La Gourmet (or something like that) located along The Walk between Cineleisure and The Curve.. gosh there were so many people and almost every eatery was packed with people too... At night, we crossed to Ikano Power Centre for our dinner at Kluang Station.. =)

Ahh.. Mother's Day is just around the corner. I've yet to receive my salary!!! *sob* if no money then how to celebrate Mother's Day?? =P haha, just kidding. Hmm..it's been like an eternity since I've made anything for my mom... I can't recall when was the last time I made a card for her.. in recent years, my family has been celebrating occasions/birthdays at restaurants only..nothing new.. no presents for anyone also. Sigh. I think my family isn't up to that fancy kind of stuff. Wondering where to celebrate Mother's Day this year again...